My word, it's been awhile...

 

Okay..wow.

I feel terrible. The last you heard of me, it was my birthday and I got amazing presents.

Well....that was one of the last good times I had, really, before things took a turn for the worst. I won't go into a ton of detail, but basically, since you heard from me, I've lost a lot.

Someone very close to me betrayed me and well, this caused things to fall apart.

I was evicted from my home in July after struggling financially to keep my head afloat.

I will note that this wasn't my or my mother's faults. We tried everything we could to keep the house and keep ourselves fed, but it was rather pointless.

Me having no job to support us, our days in our home were numbered.

So, basically everything has fallen on my shoulders. I'm to provide for my mother and try to get us a home. I've been struggling for almost 2 months to find a full time, good paying job and at long last, I was hired today. It was a tremendous God-send.

We're staying with family until God opens the door for another home. 

I couldn't be more relieved to finally find work. I have a lot of debts to repay to the ones who've supported us this year. I have storage and groceries and other necessities, all of which have been weighing heavy on my steady piling financial predicament. 

2017 has not been kind, which I was really hoping it would, since 2016 was horrible.

But surprisingly, 2017 has been the worst year of my life.

Not to be dramatic. But, really, it has.

Me, a childish loon, has been completely thrown into the world of adulthood.

I've been forced to juggle everything at once. Trying to find a job, a home, learning to drive, on top of the entire eviction scene earlier this year, not to mention the betrayal I spoke of. 

Well..yeah. It's been enormously hard on me. I've felt an overwhelming need to take care of mom and me and it has put tremendous stress on me. 

I have struggled with depression, anger, panic attacks, sickness, sudden emotional breaks..I've been a disaster and I'm not at all proud of it. 

Just as I got things under control and applied for what is now the job I'm starting, the first day I passed my driver's license, I got into my very first car accident.

At least..that I remember. Being behind the wheel. 

The car my sister left me was totaled. The very thing I needed to get around alone. 

It was meant to be mine, but, well..that plan was ruined. 

I'll eventually have to get another one once I save the money..

But I was a definite mess that week. I felt like a complete failure, and that God did not love me. Keeping my faith has been terribly hard. It's hard to keep calm, keep your faith strong, keep your chin up, when everything falls apart. 

Everything happening in the world hasn't helped. 

It's as if everything hates everyone this year. So many deaths, so much hate, so much division. It sucks. I mean, a week after my accident, my bird died. Then Molly had brief problems. That just proves it.

 I'm no stranger to hard times, but it's just that I thought I put that behind me, you know? 

Everything was fine and then..it all changed. 

But naturally, I've come to you a stronger person. 

I've learned, I've grown, I'm ready for God's plans. 

I'm out've my series of emotional breakdowns and stress attacks.

I'm walking in complete faith in God and looking forward to what he has planned for me. 

He's protected me in so many ways. Me walking from the accident without even a headache.

The other person, of course, was also fine. Or else I'd probably feel guilty forever.

I know, I'm sounding serious and adultlike, but no. 

I'm just getting deep, is all. I'm still me. I've returned to my happy, childlike self.

It happens more prominently when I surround myself with my stories and fandoms. 

My friends have been incredible. My family just as much. 

I'm in high hopes 2018 will be different. Good things will actually have their turn.

That's all I really have time to tell right now...but I ask that you will pray for me, my mom, and our situation. We need a home of our own again. We need money to help me get by these coming weeks until I can get paid. We need protection, a car, healing, food, peace and happiness. Please pray we maintain or gain these things. 

Today was a good day. I've learned to appreciate those even more.

These experiences have taught me much. And I'm quite determined now to get myself in a position where my family can be taken care of. That I will succeed. I will become something.

And I'll be able to give back to others. I'll be able to help those struggling. 

I would love nothing more than to aid those in need and tell them straight up..

I've been where you're at. I want people to hope. Never stop believing.

That is the most powerful thing in a time of crisis. It's what keeps us going.

I love you all. God bless. (:  

~ Sarah Demens ~

Birthday Nonsense

  

 As promised, here are the pictures from yesterday. (: Above is the balloon my parents sneakily acquired for me. XD

 

This here would be the delightful dessert we had after pizza. 

My wild cherry Pepsi, fudge Brownies and mint Oreo icecream. 

Topped with the sour cream and onion chips, plus Oreos, I had a massive sugar coma by the end of the night.

 

After quite awhile of my friends pestering me to listen to TØP, I finally did.

Even though I don't really care for their earlier albums' songs, this one is pure glory. I was already obsessing over HeavyDirtySoul and Stressed Out prior to getting the CD, now I'm freaking out over how good Fairly Local, Ride and Not Today are. If you don't like TØP's earlier stuff, I highly suggest giving this album a try. Cuz I was super impressed.

 

Ok, so I'm a sucker for Scooby-Doo and old Disney movies.

As well as old monster films. If you didn't know already, I am indeed a huge monster fan. ;) But yeah, I grew up watching the Abbott & Costello Frankenstein movie, so when I saw the 4 movie pack with the other monster films, I had to do the thing. I also now have all the original Scooby-Doo seasons. :D

 

Oh yes. It happened. I got my first ocarina. I'm not a very musical person at all. I tried music and it just wasn't for me. But c'mon. It's an ocarina. It's my moral obligation as the Character Queen to acquire this thing. Plus I got the Twilight Princess Manga that I have been waiting for ever since I found out about the mangas as a goofy 14 yr old. XD

I can't wait to start it!!!

 

Again.  Scooby-Doo.  And you must know now, I have developed a massive obsession for Funko Pop figures, that stemmed sometime 3-4 years ago.

I now have over 70. :')  I also have all the Scooby Funkos now, so I'm quite pleased.

 

Because Powerpuff Girls. 

 

I can't tell you how giddy I was to find out they made a Lara Croft funko.

I mean, it's not like she's one of my favorite female characters of all time or anything.

 

Don't get the wrong impression, I'm not into dolls. But I saw Mulan last year and had to get her, and then I saw Merida, and they're my two Disney homegirls, so it's more for the sake of getting Mulan and Merida stuff. 

 All that aside, they did a really good job making these dolls, yo.

 

And here we have my ocarina out of the box! I'm hoping to learn it successfully so I can master the Zelda songs. ❤

 

These are basically for the cute factor, cuz my batbabeh was precious. 😍

 

And finally, here's a sketchy me showing off my now two children. 

I'm actually really excited to be having two, cuz it's really gonna benefit for me in a lot of ways. I can also split apps and purposes now for the sake of memory. And also switch to the other when one's battery is low and needs to be charged, which has been really useful so far.

Funny thing is, I was super shocked and heartbroken that Cosmo was dropped. I thought I lost him forever, until I managed to get it to behave and stop glitching..but I had already been wanting to get another tablet in secret, so this honestly couldn't have worked out better. Life certainly does work in mysterious ways. XD 

So yeah, dem's my presents! My brother and sister in law got me an Amazon card, so I ordered the Kingdom Hearts Funkos and Sherlock S4, which I haven't seen yet, SO I'M SO EXCITED.

 

 Then this weekend will be Free Comic Book Day. 

So my sister and I are to cruise around together and do stuff.

I am taking the liberty of going as myself since I actually am a character. Which I am also excited about. 😁

So yeah. That's it for now, folks! 

Now I gotta work on editing the last of the VC market arc, then take a much needed break to enjoy the good life. B|

And with that, I bid you farewell, lovelies!! God bless!!

~ Sarah Demens

Hello, world :)

I know, you're probably wondering what in the actual. Where the hay have I been? See, I've been meaning to post, to explain that I needed some time off. I was struggling for awhile with a lot of things and got super busy that I just didn't have the time to blog. But I'm a lot better now and am trying to get a schedule set for certain things.

So yeah, my birthday was yesterday! It was a truly amazing day and I got so many fabulous presents. ^_^
Awhile back, I accidentally dropped my tablet and it caused it to crack on the inside. I managed to get it to behave, but still, didn't want to take the chance, so my parents got me a new one for my birthday (that I'm currently using) and it's awesome! I saw that they finally released a Blogger app while searching for new apps to try, so that's why I decided to update you guys. It will honestly make my job easier, since working on Blogger on the Internet app can be a bear. XD

Anyway, I'll try to post the pics I have here in a bit! I just wanted to update you and tell you that I'm back. :D Hopefully this app will make it easier to post!
~ Sarah Demens

Hello, lovelies!

It's been an uber busy time for me lately.

I've been meaning to post here again and again, but my laptop is ridiculous and I keep forgetting to do it here. I'll post those pictures, darn it, but ugh. XD 

I need a new computer.

So yessssss, I hope everyone is doing well!

I'm currently working on VC, trying to finish this stupid arc and get to chapter 13 already. :P

I've been doing the story since 2014, so it's time to get to the teens with these chapters, darn it.

I've already gotten 10 pages written and edited for chapter 10 so far. So I'm gonna work on more tonight. Speaking of VC, though, my friends/fans are absolute monsters. ;P They keep recruiting others to read it and yovu8vvc8fi, I want no more fans, YARGH. Tbh, I just don't want any more attention given to it, cuz it's proven to be a story that you either love or hate, and it truly breaks my heart when people hate it. I wanted it to be a fun thing for fans to read, but..eh. When it got somewhat harsh feedback from some people, I pretty much lost the heart in trying to throw it out there for everyone to read. :/ So yeah.

VC and my presents is just about the only thing going on in my life atm. It's a little over 3 months until my birthday. ^^ It's so weird being 21, yo. It's gonna be even weirder being 22. I don't know what to expect. I just know I'm gonna get awesome presents, yvg8yg

I also really wanna work on reading again, as well as begin writing my Beauty & the Beast. It's time. ;)

Urg, yeah. That's about it. I know, I'm exciting.

It happens. Love you guys and God bless!!

A million apologies, everyone!
I was going to post Christmas weekend, but I was exceedingly busy and I also came down with a cold that I'm just now getting over.
So I haven't had the chance to get on the computer.

However, I have been using my time away to work on my story, and managed to finish the 9th chapter last night! So whilst editing it to post it to the story blog, I'll be sure to upload the pics I took of my presents and make a Christmas post for you all.

Anyway, things are going well besides all that. I'm currently watching the Hobbit trilogy with my parents to celebrate New Years, and also working on Chapter 10. 😄

So yes. I bid you farewell for now. I hope you had an amazing Christmas and New Years, and you have a fantastic week to come!
God bless!